At times we have to express our feelings before its too late...
Let me tell you a story about an idonesian movie which touched my heart... Its called 'the mirror', It is actually a horror movie with a romantic element though its not that scary but it do gave me the scare... Hee...
Its about a young gal who have this special ability where she's not able to see the person's reflection in the mirror if the person is going to die soon. It takes her 2 death for her to realise her special ability.
Meanwhile theres this sweet guy who love her so much that he don't care what ppl says about her. Though she is giving him the hard time by rejecting any help and concern from him as her mind is disturbed, he still does he very best to help her.
I have to shorten the story... at last the guy managed to win the gal's heart and as she was dressing up to meet him, the scariest thing happen...
She couldn't see her reflection in her mirror!
She went hilarious and ran and ran until she nearly ran by a car. But luckily the guy was there and managed to save her. He stayed by her side for the last few moments of her life but have to leave her for awhile to get some food...
She was again haunted by ghost and ran out of the house with her car.
Its when she met with the accident... Haiz...
One day, he was standing at the place where he had expressed his love for her, feeling dishearted coz he had expressed his love for her but the gal could'nt gave an ans that time and now she went without him getting any ans... Suddenly the gal appears, smiling to him as ans then she dissapear and never came back...
Its such a touching story, but in real life we could not know if the person have the same feeling for us if they are gone forever...
So expressed your feelings before they are gone...
Love, Citygal
Blogged @ 2:56 AM
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I felt so empty and one point i'm glad that exams are over...
Suddenly I feel so lonely, everyone is buzy when i need them. I suddenly miss all my loved ones, my close buddies, ana and reshma, my cuzzies, my grandmas, aunties... I have been smsing alot to keep me occupied and as a form that i miss them but not all replied. Does that mean they don't feel what i felt for them?
I'm dissapointed with my close buddies... Though we have been friends for 7 years i still think at times the feeling for each other is not strong...
I have been longing for them but they doesn't seem to show any initiative... How busy i am, i still have time for them even a short msg...
Just tell me my perception is not true...
Watever it is i love them both...
He's such a nice chap, if only he's a singaporean, i don't mind even if he's a malaysian... Haiz...
Wah, 2 weeks never see msn and really miss him, was delighted to see him , he makes me forget my problem...
Out of the loneliness, i suddenly remembers the 'A' guy... Where are u?
Citygal outz...
Blogged @ 6:47 AM
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Theres 2 more exam papers coming and i'm here blogging and chatting away. To be exact, theres 3 more papers to go including one in the afternoon, imagine taking an exam paper in 4 30. I'll just be delighted if i pass my papers. Hope to get it over and done with.
I never met such an ignorant guy, actually till now, i don't know whether he's such an ignorant or he just can't be bothered... Wateva... But just hurt with his behaviour lah... I still got feelings ok... Ok, wateva
This few days i felt so far from my close friends, yeah i have always been the one who takes the iniative to caontact and sms but lately i'm quite busy... I was so delighted when Ana msg me, i know she's also busy with her exams and relationship, really glad she manage to squeze her time 4 me... Love her so much...
Kz, u peeps take care, till we meet again...
Citygal outz...
P.S. Tanx guys 4 all the encouragement... Love u guys...
Blogged @ 7:36 PM
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hee... How could i not recognise her my own grandma's voice, i was stunned that she called that i never even ask how is she. When i put down the phone i suddenly wish i could meet her and hug her... Oh.. How i miss her lots...
Miss her and all of my family members, my cuzzies, aunts... Haiz... Looks like have just to wait for Hari Raya or fasting mnth... For fasting mnth, sometimes we will all meet at at break fast 2gether. Looking 4ward 2 family gathering...
Now having exam week, i've been studying and studying, so take a break now and read all my mails and blog...
I'm very nervous because i really don't have confidence... Wish me the best aites...
Last few weeks some things happen... But whats past is past, hope things will turn out to be better...
Citygal outz...
Blogged @ 11:28 PM
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Its such a pity when a friendship just doesn't turn out...
I don't know, he's such a sweet fellow but we can feel that both of us is so different form each other. I know we could feel it but we still keep it going until we felt that continuing the friendshisp is pointless as we will just be a hipocrite. But seriously i don't know what he's been thinking, it seems that he facing some problem but he refuse to open to me. He only open to me once and that time he really tell it all...
Now, i feel that he's avoiding me, though i tried to avoid him but i don't intend to dissapear completely from his life. I am the type who will not 4get a friend just like that...
Been rushing lots of project... At times i felt that i never contribute much... I just hope my group members is satisfied with my performance. I have been getting great team members, ussually they will tell me if my work need to be improved.
My mind has been loading with lots of problems lately, friends, school, exams and yeah fasting mnth... kwang2...
Citygal outz...
Blogged @ 3:57 AM
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Why must he appears on the wrong time? I was preassured enough by my project add on with his presence, the more nervous i became... I was looking really horrible... I must have made a fool out of myself... Who would not be preassurised? We were still busy printing our entre project at 9 30 when the presentation starts at 9... Haiz, neways i was not presenting...
2day was out the whole day... Morning went to sch, stayed back at sch to discuss compensation project. Then head to Bishan to meet my god sis. Then we head to town, was damn hungry by then. Ate at Burger King... Then walk around Town until exhausted, from Far East to Lucky Plaza to Heeren to Cineleisure...
At 4 met sweety Ana... Oh ya, met Shahril from Anugerah Skrin at Lucky Plaza, He is the same as he looks in TV. Cute as ever...I have almost went to every place with my god sis, that we don't know where to go, so we spend alot of time hanging out observing people... Wee... And discussing alot of things... I know she's still down. I hope she will be strong and able to do her best for her a levels.
6 30 went to Al Falah saw Shamimi... Hee... Then after praying, went to Mac to drink and hang out... 8 something head home both gals feeling tired...
Glad i manage to destress... Lots of work waiting for me...
Citygal outz...
Blogged @ 8:53 AM
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At times its amazing how a situation can make a person hate a number of people at one go.
I am seen as a mad, cheerful and noisy gal but once my stress or anger level is up, it will be horrible because i will start showing attitude and people may hate me for that. But it rarely happens and when it happens, its burning inside me.... Argh... But i'll try to 4get the incident... I may also be at fault so i won't blame people but the attitude they gave me is just killing me...

I don't know why i'm still entertaining him though i can feel that he is not sincere in our friendship. I don't know what he really wants from me. At times he do make me laugh but most of the times i'm like the one trying to liven up the conversation, talking craps and all. First of all i don't fancy his lifestyle but i can't stop being friend with a person just because their lifestyle is unhealthy or doesn't suit my style of living...
Citygal outz..
Blogged @ 12:50 AM
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